Merry Christmas

I love you more than words can say, 

I love you more with every day. 

Sometimes life is just dark and gray,

But you can make it all okay. 

Your eyes they are like stars so bright,

I think of you each day and night. 

In the darkest nights, you're my light,

With you with me I'll be alright. 

My heart is now in your sweet hands,

Now I believe in happy ends. 

I'm glad we're more than just good friends,

I'm glad you gave our love a chance. 

You're the most beautiful girl under the sun,

Of all of my decisions I regret none. 

I love you like I never loved anyone,

I hope you know, to me you're the only one! 

Dedicated to L. K. <3

Dark Days

I'm just that part of humanity,
That is wanting to die.
Because I can not see any point
In the life that's passing me by.

For time doesn't heal anything,
I am the living proof.
I need the ground beneath my feet,
I'm staring down that roof.

God ease my troubled soul,
This world consumes me whole.
Broken by lies I was fed,
Oh how lucky are the dead?

You and me, we have dark days,
But for me the darkness stays.
To this dark world I'll give a sun,
By the shot out of my gun.

Blue Fades To Black

For faking this smile,
I practice every day.
While my salvation
Drifts further away.

I'm praying to god,
I'm losing hope.
With this misery
I cannot cope.

When my mirror smiles,
I know it's fake.
All these challanges,
I cannot take.

Life's fading away,
Blue's fading to black.
I'll be gone forever,
And I can't come back.

I'm Yours

In your smile there's something,
More beautiful than stars.
And darling, when you talk.....
Your voice will heal my scars.

I love you, I swear,
And I will never leave.
You're my salvation,
You are why I believe

You make me feel calm,
When there's a storm in my head.
And before you came,
I just wanted to be dead.

Wherever you are,
I'm thinking of you.
Whatever you do,
I'll do it with you.

And after all, I'm yours,
And I'll always be.
I'd hold my breath for you,
I hope you can see.

Salvation Is Dead

All I want is to want nothing,
Living in a world, not that dark.
A world, not this cruel,
Not trying to kill my spark.

But this life is killing me,
I suffocate under my fear.
I'm giving this life away,
There's no hope left for me here.

Maybe this is sick, or maybe it's just sad.
But at the end of this letter I will be dead.

I promised not to do it,
I promised I'd keep trying.
I pretended I was fine,
You should know I was lieing.

I can hear voices in my head,
They are screaming in pain. .
But it's the ones outside my head,
That are driving me insane.

I'll write my own ending,
Because I don't believe in fate.
I'll leave this world by now,
To make amends it's much too late.