Blind Heart In A Deaf Guy's Chest (Part I)

Okay guys, here is my story. You're about to read about my deepest secrets, my inner feelings, stuff only a few people know about, so if you can't handle feelings, you better leave now. Okay, well, first of all, A few words about my starting position. I remember I was in class 7 when my lovestory began. I was a young boy, never really believed in the strength of love. And then, all of a sudden, two girls, best friends, came in my life. We got friends. We talked day in, day out. Sometimes, we secretly kept awake for longer than we were allowed to and wrote late in the nights. We felt so criminal these days, haha. I got close to both. And then one of them told me she fell for me. I was really surprised, I was never told so. I was like 'wow, how?' But I said I would want to wait a bit, to make sure if I felt the same. But it's hard to figure out if you love someone, when you have no idea at all of how love would feel like. So I took a few days to think and then her friend, her best friend, told me, that she falls for me, too. I was a mess, I had no idea what to do. I haven't told anyone about that. I said to both, I need time, time to think about you. But, as I was still young, I just looked at the outer appearance. And time passed, hours turned into days, days turned into weeks, but I was still thinking. And then, right before summer holiday, I had to make a choice. I took both, placed them right in front of me, looked in their eyes and said: I choose you. It was the girl who told me first. Today I'm still wondering about my decision, because the other one looked kinda cuter, but okay. So I chose her. And I was the first one in my class to have a girlfriend. And how it is usually at our school, at the end of the last day before holidays, pupils go to the city to shopping, eat something or do something else. And I walked the street, next to my first girlfriend, like everyone else. But no one knew about us, except for that other girl. We didn't walk hand in hand, because I didn't dare to ask for her hand. I was very shy these days and I never had an experience like that before. I never had a girl by my side. Well, this was the first time, I wasn't single, the first hour, actually. And I remember walking there, next to this girl, when suddenly a friend of me came by. I knew, if he knew about us, he'd laugh a lot and give me stupid names and stuff, I mean it was class 7... So he came to us, we seemed like normal friends, and he asked: hey bro, where are going, why don't you come with us? And not thinking of consequences I said: my dad will pick me up somewhere else, sorry. He accepted that and walked away. My girlfriend, she looked at me, I saw the expression in her eyes. I thought I could read her mind and I read: why didn't you say the truth? But I just said: I'm sorry, he'd be annoying... So after the long time of waiting and fearing, this was already my second mistake within the first day of our relationship. Well, I was stupid, but okay... So we finally reached the park. Not a lot of people were in there, but it was really nice weather though. So we looked for a bench, where not a lot of people would walk by. We sat down. We sat, we waited, we hoped for a sign, silence, not a word, we both had no experience about this. So we just sat, next to each other, like strangers. Today, I still don't know what she thought at that moment, but I remember what I thought. "Break the silence you idiot, say something, she likes you, you won't fail!", but within this fight of my good sense and my shame, no topic came to my mind. So we just kept waiting, I think we sat there for about 1.5 hours, without a sound. But I was happy and I felt she was too. Then she suggested to get up and get an ice cream, I agreed. She had to turn on her zipper, but I left mine on, so I got up, watched her turning it on and grabbed her hand, finally. I was finally there standing with her hand in mine. The first time I held a girls hand, such a magic moment. I think I blushed a lot, haha. But I had never been this happy. I felt like just grabbing her waist and kissing her, but I didn't dare to. So we just walked. I was happy and I finally knew she was too. We smiled and we talked, had no sorrow or bad thought at all. We walked, we talked, until we arrived at the cafe. We both took an ice cream. I exactly remember, I ordered first, then she did, I paid first and the she did... I didn't even pay her ice cream! So here is the next mistake and it's still day number one, but don't worry, there'll be more! So, probably disappointed, she walked with me, hand in hand. We still had our ice cream in the other hand, when the same friend arrived again. At that moment I wished for death. He looked at us and asked, where my dad was, with an ironic voice and such a silly smile. I kinda ignored the question and simply saluted him and went along. So, mistake number 4. We went away and nothing special happened anymore. But it was just the first day, of a relationship, which I hoped, would last forever! But this was supposed to turn out as a lie......
~TO BE CONTINUED~